The Hardest

The hardest part of all of this

Is the promises you left when you walked away

You told me to hold on to you but then you let go

You told me I was the reason you’re here but then you moved away

The hardest part of all of this is you still fill the holes you left

You still walk in and out, like a vapor that I sense but when I look, you’re gone

You found another to be your refuge

The hardest part is what I gave up to sit in the silence with you

And you pretend it was never there

You act as if I shouldn’t feel the way I feel

The hardest part is thinking you felt the same

And now I know I’m the fool

For believing the lies

For thinking you just needed time

For thinking you needed me but finding you just needed the moments

And I was just the placeholder in your photoshop

Meant to be filled by another

The hardest part of losing you is that you are still here